Beer pong

We are all careening toward death at a million miles a second.

Men disgust me.

But I disgust me more.

d.draper approach to life

I’ve tried to be a better partner but the effort got me nowhere, except one big false narrative.  And my hopes for your future were false hopes, like that Beach Boys dude’s, Brian?  Yll be him, yu see yrself in hm.

Me?  I’m not a good person.  Just a collection of characters that can’t ever learn.

Don’t share anything with anybody.  She could be Batman for all we know.

empty canister, not looking 4 love

hollowhollowhollowhollowhollowhollow

After reading nekron’s friend’s lj & comments therein, I am convinced that my lack of appreciation of ‘good music’ (read: his music) is why he’ll get over me pretty quickly, if not already.  The main reason.  The other reason is because I don’t get that whole laundry thing or that whole respect thing–I’m immature for my age.  I’m not open-minded about songs about bjs.  I wasn’t into Bette Davis previously, and I think photos of vintage nudes are gay.  I’m not into cool shit generally.  I don’t define myself by anything, and have no taste.  [I am sure he is surprised that a 19 year old is better than me.  I am surprised.  But something in me doesn't care.  Vintage nudes are gay and sentimental.  Lemme lick sum despair.]

All I had going for me was my face anyway.  Which is, honestly, how it always is.

Because I’m fucking retarded.

I’m honestly into nothing but myself

I give up fighting and I’m okay with that.  She can think what she wants.  I’ll just take an OxyContin or something.

Can’t control shit.

Can control life.

Yes, baby.

i hate my father

he is indifferent to me

o lord, i am RECEPTIVE to any changes you want to fertilize in me

am i a crazy person or a decent person?

which do i want to be?

which has the best prospects?

become

how do i package myself?
and as what?

where are you?

you don’t know what you are

and that’s your biggest strength

i didn’t cheat on you and i am clean and you are clean

i need to write a book and produce and produce and produce
nothing is stopping me except a thin skin and a spongelike personality

all i want is to be myself, and to learn, and to create

i am one of millions of ambitious young fetuses