I’m honestly into nothing but myself
December 31, 2008
I give up fighting and I’m okay with that. She can think what she wants. I’ll just take an OxyContin or something.
Can’t control shit.
Can control life.
Yes, baby.
o lord, i am RECEPTIVE to any changes you want to fertilize in me
December 23, 2008
am i a crazy person or a decent person?
which do i want to be?
which has the best prospects?
become
December 23, 2008
how do i package myself?
and as what?
where are you?
you don’t know what you are
December 23, 2008
and that’s your biggest strength
i didn’t cheat on you and i am clean and you are clean
December 23, 2008
i need to write a book and produce and produce and produce
nothing is stopping me except a thin skin and a spongelike personality
all i want is to be myself, and to learn, and to create
i am one of millions of ambitious young fetuses
my consciousness has been raised
December 8, 2008
feel messed up in an intense way
i may be becoming an adult
maybe able to think again
caught up in the legitimacy of other people’s feelings and perspectives, and how beautiful and deep human experience is
half a person
November 21, 2008
remember april 21
found you
the smiths
one night stand that became seven months long
allowed myself to feel once more tonight
so i continue going through life
skills unhoned
scraping by
no cure for my disease
how to live?
devil’s in the details
November 11, 2008
to cut up
to order
to make sense of
to straighten
to narrow
to polish
to harden